i’ve always wanted to wright you a letter. but if i did would you care? would you even care if i am wasting my time right now typing all my feelings about you? i guess not. you don’t care about me. but what’s sad is that i care about you. i still love you. you make me smile in times when i feel so sad. i know you’ve hurt me but the thing is i can’t be mad at someone who coloured my life in so many ways. now i don’t even have the guts to say hi to you because i am scared of the people who will talk behind my back. i’ve been dying to listen to your jokes and to stare at you magnificent smile. you inspire. i know it’s too quick but i love you. i love how you joke around and make me smile. i love how you pass me and leave me with butterflies in my tummy. and i love how you show your talent and leave me speechless. i don’t why people would make fun of you. but in my point if view, you are special. you are so cute, adorable, irresistable and so cool. i can’t hep but think of you all the time. you’re so cute. you’re so funny. you inspire me. you really left me smiling. now everything have changed. you don’t care anymore about me. you seem like i don’t even exist when passing me in the hall way. even though, i don’t show this you don’t know how hurt i am inside. i just want to scream your name. i just want your attention. i don’t want your friends’ attention like every time they make fun of me because of liking you. i’m sorry i am just a bratty kid who doesn’t know boundaries. the truth is i like to stalk your twitter account. i know that sound so immature but i just want to stare at you avatar and read everything that you are going through in you life. and the day when you passed me with you friends i cant help but stare at you and notice your adorable smile. even though everything has changed, my love for you will always be the same.

<3 from your secret admirer who everyone already know.

PS. i still love you { }

it's been a long time since i posted. during the time i kept thinking, "why should we be in a relationship when we are still young? why should we worry?"
i mean, if you think about it there is only a small chance that we will be marrying our first love. i know that we shouldn't give up hope. but why even bother when we know we don't truely love them enough to be sure that we are going marry them in the future. i mean we are in fucking middle school, man. why the fuck do we have to take everything so seriously? everyone's heart broken going through these shitty phases. i am tired of listening to there meaningless whines. i know this makes me seem like a heartless bitch, i'm sorry. but i can't bear seeing my friends going through this. people say that i will never know what their going through. but just think for a minute. have you ever noticed that i never have been in relationship until now? does this ever cross your mind? every time i listen to all your romantic stories i slowly inside because i wonder, "what if no one will ever love me?" this keeps crossing my mind. even though i put a fake smile on my face everytime you tell me about your relationship problems doesn't mean that i don't care. i know no one cares but that life~