it's been a long time since i posted. during the time i kept thinking, "why should we be in a relationship when we are still young? why should we worry?"
i mean, if you think about it there is only a small chance that we will be marrying our first love. i know that we shouldn't give up hope. but why even bother when we know we don't truely love them enough to be sure that we are going marry them in the future. i mean we are in fucking middle school, man. why the fuck do we have to take everything so seriously? everyone's heart broken going through these shitty phases. i am tired of listening to there meaningless whines. i know this makes me seem like a heartless bitch, i'm sorry. but i can't bear seeing my friends going through this. people say that i will never know what their going through. but just think for a minute. have you ever noticed that i never have been in relationship until now? does this ever cross your mind? every time i listen to all your romantic stories i slowly inside because i wonder, "what if no one will ever love me?" this keeps crossing my mind. even though i put a fake smile on my face everytime you tell me about your relationship problems doesn't mean that i don't care. i know no one cares but that life~